Sunday, February 20, 2011

flown (flōn): {filled too full}

The last couple of months of my life has flown by
Matt has been traveling for interviews for fellowship 30 out of the last 60 days. I've had two clients under contract, one client remodel and three additional closings since Lucy's birth. Lucy is out of the newborn-sleepy-stage and a little trickier to take to work with Mommy. Jax has emerged into an inquisitive and attention demanding 4-yr-old. I keep thinking to myself how am I going to do this? I have felt several moments of regret for life going to fast and too full that I am not able to soak it up and really enjoy it. I am always in a hurry, running late, tired, up late working and just trying to juggle it all.

What do I do to get a piece of my sanity back? How do I less busy my life? I've decided to care less about getting my pre-baby body back and just give myself a little time. How do you moms with 3 and 4 kids do it? I am having a hard time wrapping my arms around two. Any advice here would be welcomed.


aimee said...

Believe me I am thinking how anyone does kids after having one of my own. Balancing work and being a mom is so much harder when doing it than when it was a hypothetical conversation.

I have learned that things end up working out. I am trying to let go of the guilt that easily pops up with every decision I make so I am trying to give myself some grace too.

In terms of your pre-baby body: Would it make you feel any better that Cash is 5 months old now and last week at church someone put her hand on my FUPA (fatter upper pussy area) and said, "Oh, you ARE pregnant again." I was like, ", I am not pregnant again." If that wasn't motivation to get moving I don't know what was. Ha ha. I hope she felt really bad about it :)

You are a wonderful person, Bekah. I know you will figure out the balance and your kids will grow up to love your guts. Hang in there!

Angela said...


Heidi said...

I don't know how you do it, but somehow you do and are an awesome mom at that.